I got a few friends did I see Don’t flirt with me I am already taken by a crazy Hairstylist shirt. I have my animals keep me busy it’s too bad you don’t live near me. Because I would certainly pick you up and we would have a good time.  I moved by your post. I’m sorry you are in need of more help. I pray you get the help you need and more people will reach out to you, even for a visitor cup of tea. Invite them and they will come. I had a lovely hang loose childhood in part because my mother was a casual housekeeper. I grew up to be the kind of woman who had beautiful furniture probably. Because she taught me to feel good about myself. Then my mother came to live in my pristine home. Within a week, as I was standing near, she set a hot pan directly on my hardwood dining table. I knew I had to decide.